Where Ya Headed?

I think just maybe I can be good at my job. It will take a lot of effort (vice the typical little or none), but if I'm willing to go the distance, I really think I can accomplish great things. I won't, because that's just not the kind of person that I am. But it's nice to know that potential is out there. It wouldn't be much fun to have nowhere left to go, no mountain to climb, etc.

I can't imagine being obscenely wealthy. Man that would be the pits. And I'm being serious here. What would I do with my time? I couldn't take a job seriously, because the second an annoying, stressful situation came up, I'd be all like, 'I don't need this crap' and just quit. And there's only so much travelling I can do. I mean, I'd do a lot, like a lot a lot, but eventually that would wear thin. And as much as I'd like to spend my time in a hammock under a tall, shady tree with a cool breeze whispering through the leaves right now, I'm sure once I actually did it for an hour or two I'd be ready for something else.

I guess it would be different if I had some sort of passion. If I had a "thing" that I was really good at. Outside of remembering phone numbers (ala Rainman, only not that well. There's always somebody better) I don't have any amazing talents to expound upon. I guess i could try wood carving, but I can just picture massive amounts of blood from a whittling accident.

It doesn't help that I was never really a goal-oriented kid. I never had one of those "I want to be a _____ when I grow up" type goal. Again, I guess I'm just not that guy. I take that back. I did want to get married, because my parents made it look so great. Also I wanted to be a parent, so I could be the one bossing people around instead of being bossed. Outside of that, I don't think I ever had any real life goals. That's kinda sad. What's the point of life if you aren't heading toward something?




Huh...from another perspective, I've got everything I've ever wanted. When I look at it that way, it's kinda cool.